You know what's better than watching or reading porn?
Imagining it.
Flashes of images, detailed storyline.
My imagination has been severely polluted these days.
I wonder why.

Somehow, I find that the idea of ********** and ****** is more arousing than the idea of *** itself. Since the latter(******) is impossible for me, I only rely on emotions from past (attempted) ************* to guide me through my mind stories. Not that I have ever reached the ^o^. I don't even think I can.

A passing thought would lead me figuring out the rest of the story. At times, I would think so deep into it that I have the urge to pen it down immediately. That's probably the reason why I'm doing this right now.

The possible surgery that I can opt to undergo popped in my mind for a while. Should I write about it? Thought more into it although I have made up my mind to just leave thigs the way it naturally is? Would I leave the story hanging once my inspiration run dry? It's actually not hard to START motivating myself. But it's hard to KEEP motivating myself. I get tired of it. Too easily.

I have finally decided to blog these things instead of keeping it to myself in my iPod. Read solely by the author herself. But its contents would reveal who I truly am inside. And it's far from my 'public profile'. Worse? Yes, much so.

The current playlist is surprisingly pleasant to listen to any time of the day. (:

Should I just pen down fragments of stories and one day piece them together? May be of use in my course...though might be R-rated. ><

BTW, if there ever would be an application which allow notes to be synced directly from iPods to a blog, I would definitely download it. Even if I have to pay.
It would at least make my life easier. I know there are many applications where you can blog from your iPod. But It's not like there is wireless the whole time. So I shall stick to my 'BlogPod' during the day and edit/post it to this blog at the end of each day.

Good stories are never due to fancy words or something like that. It's more of how the story develops and is able to hold the reader's attention. So I have a chance to make it as a writer after all. (lol) I would of course credit those who have inspired me to write and (had once) believed in me. First few copies of my novel would go to them. heez~ ^^

You know, the day ***** slips on the ring will be the day my world will crash.

But it can be salvaged. If I find mine just in time.

Cheers❤