Sunday, August 21, 2011

The Last 10 Days

In Ramadan aka the Fasting Month, we have something called 'Lailatul Qadar', where in the last ten days of Ramadan, there is one 'Night of Destiny'. Read more of it here.

After my Sahur (Pre-dawn meal), I played random games on my iPhone till I fell asleep.

I dreamed that my cousins are staying over, my mum came home late and that I had to meet her to buy food for Sahur. But I forgot my wallet (or something) and I had to go back to my house.

But the lifts seem to have a problem and my neighbours and I were afraid that it would break down. Unfortunately, I was left alone because I live on the highest level.

And I was freaking out.

Fortunately, I reached my level safely and I ran to my house.
I was grappling with the keys.
Then my late grandmother appeared, all smiles, taking the keys and opening the gate for me.

In my mind, I know that it's not real and that I should probably be freaking out.

But all I could feel was relief.

I instantly hugged her once I entered.

In my mind, I was still thinking whether anyone else could see her.

It felt so good, so real.

And then my mum woke me up for morning prayer.

In my groggy state, the dream hit me and I realised that my arms were positioned in a way as though I'm hugging someone (I was sleeping sideways).

You should know what happened next.

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She looked a little thin, with her usual short cropped hair.

But she looked really happy.

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This is the only one that 'magically' lives while other plants die.




Apparently my next-door neighbour waters and looks after it.

My mum wanted to give her but she refused.

My grandfather bought that for my grandmother.

And everybody seems to know that.

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Today is the 21st night.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Epiphany 2.0


And this time it's real.

I think I have a fear of being forgotten, or Athazagoraphobia.

I realised this since I've been thinking a lot about school. The end is near.

And I don't wanna be forgotten.