I have to sort out my feelings.
A lot is going on in my life, and I finally resort to my usual method of de-stressing - crying in the toilet.
I takes a hell lot of determination not to burst into tears in the middle of the street as I walk home in the rain.
As I'm typing now, a towel draped over my shoulder, hair wet and tangled, I'm struggling to come up with words to express my feelings.
Not a good thing for a 'creative writing' student. 
Huh.

You know, sometimes you feel that you have a close friend whom you can share your tears and laughter with?
But when you're actually in need of someone, that person comes to mind but you can never pick up the phone to call the person?
Why is that so?
To me, I would feel that I would only burden the person with the depressing situation I'm in.
Or I would think that the person doesn't actually care.
How does that affect the relationship between the two?
I don't know. 
It's been a while since I've heard from you...

This actually helps...my tears are drying, my sniffing has ceased...

Now, moving on...
I'm constantly having illusions about ~
And I have to consciously tell myself, "C'mon Suly...get a grip."
It doesn't take a lot for me to feel all blue, neither is it hard to make me smile.

eughh...I'm losing my words again...

I can't think of the word I had in my mind a few seconds ago...
Why is everything slipping away from me...?

fuck.
That's the only word left in my mind right now.

I just have to move on...CA assignments are piling and feeling bitter certainly doesn't help.

Convenience.
That is the word I was looking for...

Ok, this post is totally pointless but I'm gonna post it anyway.

"Sorry for wasting your time".