I would be lying if I say I don't feel uncomfortable.
I'm happy for you, really. All of you.
It's just that...

Nothing like spending a day with a friend.

A good movie
Frozen yoghurt
Past musings
Contemplating at the crossroads

Caramel Custard and Egg Mayo ♥

Top 3 people whom I love to hate and hate to love:

1) My mum - Her burp stinks so bad it makes me run out of the room every time.
2) My cousin Sofea - She's so annoying sometimes. Especially when she goes on and on about her bias (Super Junior's Kyuhyun).
3) My secondary school friend Shafinah - She bores me with her business talk sometimes.

But of course,

1) My fart is 10 times worse than her burps. *Ahem, exaggerating here.*
2) I can talk endlessly about countless number of guys. It's hard to be loyal to one - especially since the guys don't even know I exist.
3) I realize how awfully boring I am when she purposely stays silent and lets me talk.

All I wanna say is,

EYE ELLE OH VI EE WHY OH YOU.

<3

Had a misunderstanding.

I thought I was supposed to work today. Apparently, I went to PSA just to apply for a worker pass. =.= Gonna work on Sat. :/

My cousin and her bf picked me up in his blue car. I realised that whenever I ride in that car, it is always going somewhere and doing something new. The first time was to go to Sephora Mac for a make-up session. (:

Headed to SIM (Uni) afterward for late lunch. We actually got kinda lost (even though my cousin and her bf were ex-students there. Well, they graduated two years ago so =\ ). If I think SP is big, SIM has gotta be twice the size. o.o

On the way back I spotted a new condominium named 'Jardin'. I'm glad I can understand some French now. Jardin means 'garden'. Le Jardin.

I wonder if I should take up French II next term. As much as I enjoy learning the beautiful (sexy, more like) language, Year 3 would be one hectic year.

I can smelllllll it.

>.<

This girl has good taste. LOL


Muackz,
Suly

When was the last time you did something for the first time?

For me, it was today.

I went out on a little trip on my own. Being insecure as ever, I planned beforehand in detail of what I plan to do today. From my outfit, to what bus to take, what time should I watch the movie, everything. Of course, life is such that nothing ever goes according to plan.

As such, I missed the bus, alighted at the wrong stop, missed the movie, spent an hour wandering around Marina Square aimlessly while talking to my cousin, Sofea, on the phone, and finally decided to head over to Vivo City to catch the movie at the next screening (14:15).

But no, I wasn't feeling miserable. Not yet (at least I got my hot pepper paste for my ddukbokkie! ^_^)

Have you ever been to the cinema alone?

The ticketing guy gave me the worst seat ever (I wasn't allowed to choose @.@).
A single seat, right at the back, and it's the ONLY occupied one in the whole of the left column.
One look and you know that the person is #foreveralone.
Pa-thé-tique.

So what movie did I watch?

I love the references to other movies.


Twilight

American Beauty

Moulin Rouge

Oh! They even have a tiny part of the epic Cadbury Eyebrows

And I like how I notice details like how the Reds (inferior gnomes) are under the hot sun while the Blues (superior gnomes) are in the shade in the race scene. Or how the camera zooms out from the word 'OVER' to reveal the full word 'MOVERS'. That's what DTVM has made me. lol.

Overall, I would give it a 3.5-4*. Would not watch it again (unless it comes out free on MIO TV).

Back home, I finally tried cooking ddukbokkie (Korean spicy rice cake).

And it looks like this

It's really filling. Gotta admit it's not really up to my expectation. Oh wells.

Since I'm on food, this is the 'gourmet ramyun' I mentioned in the previous post.

Special ingredient: Cheese.

And this my grandmother's chicken salad. Appetising, much?

Oh! I'm supposed to help out my aunt tomorrow (aka work).
It's $10/h.
Well, nothing to lose, a lot to gain, right?

Good luck to me.
(:

Coolness.
I'm blogging on the iPad.
lol.

The first week of school vacation flew by like *pew!*
(forgive me for my pathetic attempt at sound effect >
Let me see if I have made my life worthwhile then...

1) I started working on my 1000-piece puzzle again with renewed hope. Still working on it.
2) I vacuumed and mopped the house twice, changed bedsheets, did random cleaning, folded clothes, cooked...just a ton of housework.
3) Cooked 'gourmet ramyun'. Not bad for a first try...
4) Made a birthday girl happy by fueling her love for a certain curly-haired filthy-rich Korean lad...
5) Found a new interest in another Asian guy (Jay Chou)
6) Befriended a balloon. Not just any balloon. It's a 'Feel Better Soon' Tweety.
7) Accompanied my grandmother to the hospital for her appointments , twice. (Met a nice lady with Bonamana ringtone while I'm there.)
8) Stared out the window watching life through the consistent drizzle while listening to ballads alone in the cab. Gotta love that.
9) Watched a French movie - Amelie. I kinda see myself as the eccentric character. Having unfulfilled desires and being an extreme introvert.
10) Met a *super cute* guy while having dinner @ Pastamania. Too bad he was serving me, not dining with me.
11) Had a nice long chat with a good old friend, who is one of the very few 'good old friends' that I have.
12) Shared the cost of a 64GB 3G iPad with my parents, as an advanced birthday present for my mum. I use it (a lot) more than her though. Wee~
13) Got a carebear from my grandmum. <3
14) Watched Haeundae thrice, cried twice. I recommend this movie to everyone. It's about Tsunami hitting S.Korea. It makes me reflect deeply on my life and inspires me to be a better person. Go watch it.
16) Pre-ordered U-Kiss First Kiss Concert DVD. It's the first and last full three-hour concert with all the original seven members. (':
15) Started blogging again. I'm a failed writer. I drive away my readers. I hope by some miracle they will visit my rusty blog again, and see that I've updated.

Excluded the nitty gritty details.
Hmm, not bad for the first week.
Let's see how the second one will be.

Missing you,
Suly

Imma gonna keep it simple.
After all, it's the content that matters.

I have to thank a certain someone who made me realise how *much* I matter to another certain someone.

Gonna make do with my trusty iPod, beloved Nokia and (partly mine) iPad.
iPhone can wait.
And I WILL wait, no matter how long it takes.


My SP student card is gonna be expired on April 2012.
Not looking forward to life beyond that date.

I see that my writing style has not changed.
Haiz.


Goodnight (morning?) world.

ParkSooLee

...yea right.

I'm sorry people.
I'm dead here, but
VERY MUCH ALIVE on Twitter.
Follow me @Sulyylus.
Kamsahamnida!~~~

Warning!
Emo fangirl post.

Kim Hyun Joong has officially left DSP.

My jaw dropped when I read this news in class this morning.
I couldn't concentrate the whole day.

Why?

Why did he 'abandon' his brothers?

Why didn't I become a fan of them earlier?

Why didn't they come to Singapore even once?

Why?

Leader would be busy in his 'new path',
JungMin has his online store to manage,
Baby continues being DJ for Music High,
What will become of Kyu and YS?

Not that I don't have faith in them,
but look,
just LOOK!

Even as a group those two are rarely in the limelight.
So what now?

Actually I have always known this was coming sooner or later.
I was hoping against hope that it was never.
Who am I kidding?

Besides rumours, clues are apparent.

1) Although Love Ya is an AWESOME song and could probably win many more awards, they stopped promotional activities abruptly.

2) The song 'Forever' on their new album sounds like they are missing us TripleS...which means they are missing us when we were together...when THEY were together.

3) The album title itself - DESTINATION. Doesn't it hint that they have reached their destination? And that will be the last group album?

4) The X-Concert. 'X'. Another indication.

5) Not to mention their tears. PARK JUNG MIN actually cried buckets.

I don't know. Maybe I'm just overwhelmed by the whole issue. They might continue their group activities but, what are the chances?

I don't wanna put my hopes up too high.

Just to be let down.

~

I'm drinking honeydew ice-blended bubble tea.
And I'm starting to hate the colour green.
Call me childish, but hey,
they were the ones who made me fall in love with the colour at first.

~

Eughh!

I planned to write a lot.
But I can't bring myself to write them.
I mean, not being emo or anything, it's just that my mind's a little muddled.
I realised that the best way to write is to just start writing.
Which is exactly what I'm doing now.
Ok, I'll separate my thoughts using paragraphing. =.=

~

I'm in another 'Gadget Dilemma'.
I would include pix but uploading takes forever.

Basically,

Current 16GB iPod Touch 1st Gen (black) + Nokia 7373 (p!nk)

                              VS

Current 16GB iPod Touch 1st Gen (black) + LG Lollipop (I'll trade-in my dust-collecting LG Crystal and give away my Nokia 7373)

                              VS

iPhone4 32GB (White) to replace both hp & ipod.

Decisions...decisions...
Suggestions, anyone?

~

I hope class won't have full attendance tomorrow.
I'm having Post-Holiday Syndrome.
Is there a way to prepare mentally and emotionally for school?

~

Just came back from Genting Highlands two days ago.
Pix up on FB.
It 'suddenly' dawned on me that I have a thing for photographers.
Especially the 'wedding' or 'tour guide' ones.
No kidding.
I have a list.

~

Oh, I sprained my knee while standing in the bus on the way to Orchard last week for a haircut.
I mean, how is that even possible??
I was alone and was about to cry but could only release my tears 3hrs later.
In the comfort of my room.
Which was not really comfortable due to the agonizing pain in my left knee.
And guess what?

~

I have the U-Kiss events for the next two days.
Went to the doc's in the morning, praying that I won't have to amputate my leg.
Thank gawd not.
I nearly cancelled my date with Pearline to meet our idols U-Kiss.
Luckily my head was still functioning - I would die if I didn't go.

~

Took some pix and vidz of the IMM Fanmeet and St James Showcase.
I shook hands with 5 out of 7 of them.
But I wasn't satisfied.
And there's nothing else I could do.
Now I'm just hoping and praying that they'll be back for a full 3-hour concert.
And tweeting them whenever I could.

~

I really appreciate your (plural) persuasion for me to update my blog.
It means that I still have some readers.
So, thanks.
(:

I realised that I wrote more than I intended to.
That's the power of writing freely with a flowing mind.
Goodnight.

Much love,
Suly

I cannot deny it anymore. It's hard to be ugly.

Time to reflect on my life.
13 April 2010
A very eventful day.

A day when...

1) My 'Seoulmate' Sofea celebrates her birthday, which coincides with her New South Wales English Competition and her Singapore Youth Festival Choir Competition. And I didn't give my last wishes.

2) I was supposed to interview my deputy principal, but he couldn't make it as he was sick. And I missed my chance meeting a great person.

3) I was in-charge of the registration counter during my course's welcome party for my juniors. And I failed at my role as things got out of hand.

4) I met my secondary school junior at the party, who surprised me with her hug. And I remembered a certain someone from my secondary school who was my 'hugging partner'.

5) I walked in the heavy rain after the party, heading home alone. And silently prayed that I won't get struck by lightning.

6) I had dinner at CoffeeBean with my parents, surrounded with lovebirds. And I wonder whether I would ever be able to experience that.

7) I received an email from my lecturer saying that my work will be put up on a website. And I remembered a certain secondary school teacher who wished to see my writings published.

8) I was tagged in old pictures of mine on facebook, by a friend who's very far away yet close in my heart. And I wonder if I have more than one of such friends.

9) Kim Hyung Joon's Music High had it's special broadcast, in celebration of it's first anniversary. And I wonder when I'll get my Gorealra software so that I can watch DJ Joon, instead of just listening to his voice.

10) I typed all these with tears streaming down my face. And I think my life is just right, as it is.

A Very Eventful Day, indeed.

501%❤,
Sulyy

It's only 10.30 in the morning but I feel like it's been a long day.

People have always asked me what it feels like to be an only child.
Lonely? Yes, at times.
Most of the time I'm preoccupied with fangirling, YouTubing, FaceBooking, Twittering and so on.

Came back from my aunt's place earlier this morning.
Was supposed to come back last night.
As usual, I felt heavy to leave the house.
I never fail to sleepover there every possible holiday.

Last night after the last minute change of plans (of going home), my girl asked me what I like most about staying over.
I thought for a while and said, "the company".
She kept mum after hearing my reply and we were lost in our own thoughts in the comfortable silence.

I love my parents a lot. Really. I won't say "they are the BEST parents in the world" cause that's just too cliché and is plain bullshit. I mean c'mon, how many parents do YOU have? How would you know if your's is the best? Ok whatever.

I know I hurt my mum's feelings yesterday when I sms-ed her to say that I'm not coming back.
Called her numerous times and she refused to pick up her phone.
I don't regret my decision though.
Had a 'Friday Night Karaoke Party' to celebrate my 'extended stay'.
(=

This morning when I left, my kids were still in their bed.
Mummy (that's what I call my aunt) sent me to the bus-stop with the little one.
I felt bitter.

My grandfather greeted me once I set foot in the house.
My parents were out market-ing.
Although I've been staying over umpteen times, despair enshrouded me and I cried myself to sleep.
The incessant drizzle outside complemented my mood.

I woke up an hour later and my parents were still nowhere to be seen.
Called my mum and there was still no answer.
That's exactly what I mean when I answered my girl's question last night.

I feel fortunate to be loved by people around me.
There are things lacking here and there, but it's the people who matter the most.
Watched 'Fever Pitch' two days ago and one line is stuck in my head.

Ryan: You love the Red Sox, but have they ever loved you back?

Wise words from a kid - probably no more than 12yo. It's so true. No matter how much you love an item, a game, a plant, or anything at all, only human (well, and animals) can reciprocate your love.

Haiz...

I should go wipe off my tears now.
It's not good to greet your loved ones with puffy swollen eyes.

501%❤,

Sulyy

I love my Seoulmate.

I love all thOse phone calls.

I love our endless Fangirling.

I love tEaching you.

I love how we can talk about Anything and everything under the sun.

I know you're probably not gonna read this - not anytime soon anyway.

It's amazing how much our relationship has evolved over the decade.

I just pray that we'll be as close - if not closer - another ten years down the road.

Saranghaeyo♥

Poodle & Skelly!~ 

^_^

♥

Post for 100210.
Just missed 90210 (ystd's date).
Sharks.
__________________________________________________________________________________

I didn't know that I'm going to hurt this bad.

There were a lot of 'high-points' throughout the day (Pictionary, manageable papers...etc.) but right now, I'm at my lowest.

MAJOR COL* SESSION.

It was the end of a couple (or more?) of things for me today.

First, I can't believe that my French (General Elective Module) class is over. I've met wonderful people like Huiyi, Nia, Yinxiu and Shahirah. Hope we can keep in touch...FB & MSN don't count. ><

Then, another goodbye to my Chinese (Foreign Language Programme) class. I'm seriously gonna miss it. Xiao Laoshi, Fangfang (fellow Korean fangirl!) and everyone else for making the class enjoyable and making me stay awake with all the random comments, correcting Xiao Laoshi's English...thanks guys.

I hate goodbyes.
And the worst kinds are the ones that we don't even see it coming.
How can I tell when we'll see each other again?

I had a missing piece. At first, I didn't even realised that it was missing. So I thought, well, maybe I'm better off without it. Somehow, by the end of the day, I realised that not only am I missing a piece,

I'm now totally broken.

)':

Suly

*Cry(ing) Out Loud

LAST DAY OF JANUARY 2010!

Must pali pali blog! Hahax =P

Just some random updates. hERE WE G0:

- Been volunteering @ Beyond organisation...quite a nice experience actually. Gonna continue on my own for now...as in, not for school assignment.

- Just ordered Nokia 7373 Powder Pink from eBay for S$147.40. Been wanting this phone for 4 freaking years. My history of 9 phones have made me realise that the only functions I frequently use are SMS & call. =.=

- My attempt at making a video for school assignment was an epic phail.

- Avatars are cool. Humans are evil. Those blue creatures are simply beautiful. I wanna touch the seed of the secret tree - the purest spirit!

- Drowning in assignments. What's new?

- Eternal love for SS501, growing love for U-Kiss, new-found love for SHINee


Erm erm erm ok that's all for now.

PALI POSTTTT!!!!~   T.T

BACK BY POPULAR DEMAND:

SOOLEE Z'GREAT!

BWAHAHAHAHA!~   
=P
LOL.

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Went out with HONEYY today(=
Watched New Moon @ GV Tiong Bahru...
First time there in like, 10 years?? o.o
I would give the movie 3.5*...
No particular scene that makes me go WHOAR...
None of the soundtracks attract my attention either. Unlike 'Supermassive Blackhole' in Twilight...
So yea.

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Had a pleasant time chit-chatting with my HONEYY @ Donut Factory (or sth. can't rmbr th name. =.=).
Holiday flings are the 'in' thing yarrr?
hahax.
Reminded me of Mr. Cameraman from 2006 Hong Kong trip.
Haiz. ):

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I wanna go I wanna go I wanna go
KOREAAAAA! D=

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Oh well.
I'll just wait for my SS501 oppas to hold the Persona Concert in this FINE country of mine.
><
SHALL DRAG SOMEONE BY HOOK OR BY CROOK.
Any volunteers? *sweet smile and killer aegyo*
LOLZ.

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Isn't it scary how time flies?
I mean, seriously.
I honestly think the world is ending. (not the 2012 platypushitzxzxz thang)
And time is compressed.
Literally.
Like, we still have 24hrs, but instead of one full hour, it is actually compressed to like, say, 45min?   
It's just that we can't really see it, only feel the 'long-term' effect.  
Reminds me of Lenka's 'The Show'. ><

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I'm falling in love with another batch of ADORKABLES.
Yes, Korean.

U-KISS FTW!! :D

Wakakaka.

My fav 3 of the 7-man band:

KIBUM (top) - Simply because he's SS501's Hyung Jun's brother and it never fails to amaze me how similar their looks and VOICE are.

ALEXANDER (2nd from right, top) - THIS GUY SPEAKS 7 FREAKING LANGUAGES. 'nuff said. *bows*

KEVIN (2nd from right, bottom) - His voice...seriously...melts me...*faints* *regains conscious* It's just so...gentle(?) soft(??) SWEET! *faints again* =.=  In other words, if he were to whisper in my ear, I would peeinmypants and droollikeadog. seriously.

Rightss...enough spazzing.
Or I'll drive away my loyal readers.
                                                             HAH.

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I want a white-and-apple-green bedroom for my 18th birthday, tyvm.

 Cheers❤  
501%❤,
Sulyy

I know someone who looks like a cross between Andy Lee from Shinhwa and Kim Hyung Joon from SS501. omggg.
I just have to write this coz' I can't get over it.
omggg.
o.O

Cheers❤

p.s. I feel like a stalker, once again. >.<

I have to sort out my feelings.
A lot is going on in my life, and I finally resort to my usual method of de-stressing - crying in the toilet.
I takes a hell lot of determination not to burst into tears in the middle of the street as I walk home in the rain.
As I'm typing now, a towel draped over my shoulder, hair wet and tangled, I'm struggling to come up with words to express my feelings.
Not a good thing for a 'creative writing' student. 
Huh.

You know, sometimes you feel that you have a close friend whom you can share your tears and laughter with?
But when you're actually in need of someone, that person comes to mind but you can never pick up the phone to call the person?
Why is that so?
To me, I would feel that I would only burden the person with the depressing situation I'm in.
Or I would think that the person doesn't actually care.
How does that affect the relationship between the two?
I don't know. 
It's been a while since I've heard from you...

This actually helps...my tears are drying, my sniffing has ceased...

Now, moving on...
I'm constantly having illusions about ~
And I have to consciously tell myself, "C'mon Suly...get a grip."
It doesn't take a lot for me to feel all blue, neither is it hard to make me smile.

eughh...I'm losing my words again...

I can't think of the word I had in my mind a few seconds ago...
Why is everything slipping away from me...?

fuck.
That's the only word left in my mind right now.

I just have to move on...CA assignments are piling and feeling bitter certainly doesn't help.

Convenience.
That is the word I was looking for...

Ok, this post is totally pointless but I'm gonna post it anyway.

"Sorry for wasting your time".

Omo omo omo omo omo omo omo ! ! =DDDDD

Was JUMPING FOR JOYYY when I saw my mum holding a brown package when she got home.

GAHHHHH. XD

Finally got my SS501 Rebirth Album (Special Edition) ! :D

S$30 only lahhh.

@ HMV that day I saw it was around S$55 I think.

Online order about S$42.02.

I got a 'special' price all thanks to Ms. Mi Young (mum's friend from Korea office who ordered online -->

domestic shipping free mah...) and Mr. Ronald Rocher (for helping to deliver the package to Sing office).

Kamsahamnidaaaaa! ;D

& today is Prince Young Saengie's bdaeeeeee! So...

Saengil chuka hamnida ~
Saengil chuka hamnida ~
SARANGHAEYO Yeong Saeng oppa ~
Saengil chuka hamnidaaaaa!! ~

*woots*

wakakaka.

The Album (special package comes with 2 posters & a photodiary)

Young Saeng oppa birthday boy!~

Bonus picture: Hyun Joong leader & his 4D-ness. His 'true form'. LOL

The Group! Jung MAL (far left) looks so cute here. ;P

Annyong!!

Cheers❤
Imma Green Pea Princess! =P

So far have walked home thrice this week.
Gonna walk everyday as much as possible.
'Walked' for 12 hours yesterday.
9am-9pm.
From Orchard to all 3 Tampines Malls and finally West Coast Plaza. @.@
Lovin' my new O.D.M Pixel Square in Silver (see below), M.E.L red handbag and strawberry bracelet.

My 2nd O.D.M item. O.D.M rocks luhh.

Cheers❤

Today was the first time I walked home from school.
I've been wanting to do so for months, but only now I finally stop making excuses to myself and putting my words into action.
It was quite a pleasant walk.
The weather's on my side, sunny and breezy.
The trees, green fields, education institutions, a 1001 vehicles zooming along the road were some scenes that accompanied me on my journey home on foot.
Thanks to my trusty iPod touch, I could track the duration with the stopwatch, and have my favourite SS501 tunes ringing in my ears. Listened to 6 out of 8 songs in my On-The-Go playlist. 'On-The-Go' is right. ;P
Took only 23:31.1 min.
Last but not least, tyvm to my FitFlops for giving me the motivation to start walking.
Every step counts, and I'm glad I'm counting it with you. (:


Cheers❤
Sulyy

OMG FREAKINGG CUTEEEE!!~  



Thanks to JSM/LS for 'helping' me find the link(:

WAKAKAKAKAKA

=DDD


KIM HYUN JOONG/4D/LEADER/GAE(DOG)/ManInWhite
FIGHTINGGG ~ ! ~ !
+D

GuJunPyo/LeeMinHo

Too bad the heart looks more like an apple.
LOL


LG Crystal Promoter




Aww...Bummie has a picture of me in his diary...hehe :P



KimJoon/WooBin/Mr. Bean look-a-like


kyo-ness.


dangg i'm crazy.
><

((updated))

Just got back from an hour of retail therapy (cures colds too ^^) at West Coast Plaza.
Before that went to West Coast Community Centre to apply for SingPass.
Took less than 10min.

Bought

and

amongst a bunch of other stuff...

Managed to be left with only a few coins when I got home. =.=

Now enjoying 

while blogging...

Gotta cook dinner later.


Cheers❤

the previous post supposed to be published weeks ago.
or rather, last week.
but it seems like such a long time ago.
oh well.

sorry if i've been MIA for so long.
am now at my aunt's place at Bukit Panjang for another week of getaway.

been immersing myself into the korean wave.
KimHyunJoong, SS501, BoysOverFlowers, WeGotMarried, badabee badaboo.
'nuff said.

hmm.
recently, i've had nothing better to do than talking to a stranger.
won't be surprised if the cops show up at my doorstep one day.
:/

school's starting soon.
feeling ambivalent about it.

A meeting like glass. It's hard, and it breaks (hearts) easily. Some are shiny, others...are just fogged up and we can't even see. It allows only some light (truth) to pass through. Can't wait for the next one to come in. Holding on to my trusty LG Crystal.

Cheers❤

50th Post!~
This is the most and in the shortest time (6 mths) so far compared to my previous blogs...
The one before (http://veryretardedidiot.blogspot.com/) only had 55 posts over 3 years...gawsh.
=.=

Been a pleasant week! ^_^
wakaka ;D


Pix Galore ;)
to give you an idea of the recent happenings in my life...
LG (=

have a lot more but HECK.

Cheers❤